Feeling Disconnected

Feeling disconnected. As strong as my will has been these past few months I still get to a point where I feel disconnected from things. I look at what I am doing, what I have done and where I want to go. I think by looking at the past, present and future I can get out of the funk of being disconnected.

PAST:
I look at the past and think holy crap I was obese, fat, gross, etc. I was unhealthy, I was not happy; these things make me realize that things really are not that bad that I am changing my life for the better. That the healthy lifestyle that I have chosen now to live is so worth it; these choices are making my life, my world a better place for me to be in. My back doesn’t hurt nearly as much as it used to. I can do things that I didn’t think were possible a year ago, even a few months ago! I can get past this disconnected feeling.

PRESENT”
I look at the present; I try to figure out why I’m feeling disconnected. Is it because I can’t go out and drink with friends? Just because I can’t have a few drinks doesn’t mean I can’t go out with my friends, I can have just as much fun with them drinking water as I can drinking alcohol. I know because I have done it, and it actually is amusing watching people get tipsy. Or is it that I can’t have that pepperoni pizza I so crave and miss? Or is it just because I am tired, tired of working out, tired of eating healthy, tired of being accountable to know one but myself??

FUTURE:
I think of the future and where I am going. How I will be at my goal by the end of the year if I continue to push myself. I realize that I have a great support system starting with myself, my family and my awesome trainer.


When I ask myself these questions I realize if I look at what I did, and what I plan on doing it is all worth it and I can get past the struggles of being disconnected. I just need to take one day at a time, one step at a time, one hour at a time, one pound at time. I can do it; I can stay on track and get to where I need to be. I will continue to need the support of my family, friends and trainer to get there but the path has been paved and I am on my way to success!!